So as you could’ve probably guessed, I’m back from my vacation! aaaaand some of you have been caught off-guard by the fact that I’m now no longer a part of dA, nor any of the groups from it (Sixfold, pmde, kitty-katty-city). I realize that I didn’t give any of you an explanation as to why I decided to do this, and since you’ve all been so great to me for the last two or so years, I figure I owe you all an explanation.
At first I wasn’t gonna say anything, but then you mentioned my name, so I feel obligated to do so.
I’m pretty sure you’re just gonna ignore me or whatever, but I don’t care. I wanna say something so I’m gonna say it.
“. I took my hiatus a while back to try to learn to build my life away from you guys, but I was unsuccessful…I didn’t grow as a person, I didn’t make any new friends, I didn’t get a job, I didn’t earn my license…any of it. And the primary reason why I felt like I couldn’t grow in my real life was because I felt chained mentally and emotionally to my online life”
You placed unrealistic goals and expectations unto yourself, so of course this will happen. Pep, first of all, in this economy, getting a job, especially for an 19 y/o who just finished their first semester this year, is going to be hard. So I don’t even know how you thought you’d even be able to manage that in such a short time span. Secondly, why the hell are you giving yourself a TIME FRAME in order to make friends? That’s ridiculous. Friendship isn’t a process, an equation, something that you can do easily within a allotted time. Friendship just…happens. Why rush it?
And if you honestly, blame your online relations for your failing…well way to avoid the issue. If your dependency online is what really cause your failure, then it’s your own fault for letting dA, Tumblr and Skype get to you so much. So, why punish and degrade other people who were nothing but NICE to you?
“Sixfold became my life for the past year, give or take. It felt like a job, or like I was part of an important club at school, or something to that effect….it didn’t earn me any money to support me, it didn’t teach me anything, it didn’t make me more confident, it didn’t broaden my mind.”
What. Okay, first off, sweetheart, you were and ADMIN. ADMINISTRATOR. What made you think the position would be all FUN? That’s illogical thinking right there. Yes, some parts will be fun. And that was evident by the RPing you did on Kassy’s blog. But there is work involved. That should’ve been obvious from the day the idea of SixFold was conjured up. Look at all the work you and the other admins put into the world building and plot…and you thought it was only going to be FUN?
I’m sorry but you’re an idiot for thinking so.
Moreover, Sixfold didn’t earn you anything? How about fucking responsibility? Time management? Leadership? And if we’re talking physical things, weren’t a vast majority of your commissions from SixFold members anyway?
Nice going there, darling.
“internet friendships are not real.”
I would love to know what kind of a person your friend is. Because frankly, she’s a cunt, and you are too for letting her get to you so much.
Well they were very real to your friends, your fellow admins in 6XL and your ex-boyfriend (good job breaking it off with him on New Years Day, btw. You have excellent timing)
Pep, what in the hell makes you believe Internet friends aren’t real? You are a real person behind that computer screen. I am too. So is Iam, Mir, Bex, Mikami, Crit, etc. They are all real people. And because they are real people, they feel real emotions, laugh real laughs, cry real tears, and form real relationships.
The thing is, for some reason, you, and your stupid friend, seem to have it in your thick skulls that people over the Internet are lying. Aleast that’s the implication. Why else would you feel that Internet friendships aren’t real? If you choose to respond please answer that question. The thing is, Pep, I am capable of putting up a facade over the Internet AND in real life. You’re an actor. You of all people should know this is possible. Yes, because you and the people you know are separated and can only communicate over the Internet, such deceit is easier, however that doesn’t mean it’s actually happening.
And it’s quite rude of you to assume that.
It’s quite rude of you to assume that the feelings your…what do I call them? Acquaintances? Cause apparently they aren’t friends to you…from the people you know over Tumblr were fake. That they were fake. That they ARE fake. Actually, it’s disgusting for you to be parading that type of bullshit around Tumblr and think it’s okay.
It’s not. It never has been and it never will be. See, you always do this: say something offensive but ornate your speech with fucking happiness and flowers and think that people will be fine with it. I’m pretty sure I proved to you that it isn’t, sweetheart.
You need to grow up, Pep. You’re so immature. You can’t formulate decisions for yourself and the ones that people formulate for you end up screwing you over. Your real life friend convinced you to cut ties with REAL people. Your God turned you into a bigot. When are you going to start making decisions for yourself? When are you going to see the world through your own eyes and be your own person, instead of this fucking cunt hiding behind a mask of happiness and perpetual acceptance?
The mask is cracking, and your true self is showing through. And that person, to be frank, is someone who I could never see myself being friends with. Cause that person is a disgraceful human being. Disgraceful to the religion she chooses to hide behind, and disgraceful to just plain old human morals in general.
You’re the fake one here, Aimee. Not the people you grew to know and then slapped in the face with this fuckery.
I just hope you come to realise that.
The whole thing with Garnet and Darrel has been completely cut from any part of Team ASDF’s story. So any asks about them won’t be answered due to no longer being a thing.
fucking drama holy shit ruined my mood entirely
“… He’s not coming back… is he?”
“I promise you. I’ll even help you look Phoebe…maybe he’s even with Penelope and Pashmina…”